This is it!!!! This is the END!!!!

“History or Fantasy” is shutting dow. Transferring to “The Journeys Of A Loner” in http://jouleong.blogspot.com/

SHUTTING DOWN:11.41PM 8TH AUGUST 2009

1 week of holiday…….

cuti yang selesa……..TIDUR TIDUR TIDUR!!!!!!!!!

cuti yang berselera……….MAKAN MAKAN MAKAN!!!!!!!

cuti yang senang……… LEPAK SINI LEPAK SANA!!!!!!

this is my routine for the past few days since i came back, interesting isn’t it? eat eat eat, sleep sleep sleeep, wake up and repeat d process, wooohooo!!!!

eat mooncake lah, eat durian lah, eat hawker food, eat home cook food, eat and eat and eat…….full d go to sleep, air-con room sumore……so syok……so relaxing……..if this is paradise, then better dun let it end

Wednesday morning, my campus was closed down because of H1N1. I returned to ipoh the very same day later in the afternoon. Well, this post is not actually about the event but rather on something that I have realized that I should have realized some time ago. This is a tribute to my watch and leather shoes that is nearing their time.

My watch started moving slower recently. I even saw the seconds’ needle failed to leap successfully, the normal signs of battery running low. Or at least that’s what I thought. So I went to the shop, and they checked the battery out and say its still usable. I saw the voltmeter showing a quite high reading. But I didn’t bought a new watch yet.

My leather shoes inner skin is peeling off. Not the leather itself, but the layer protecting the leather. Even though no one will see it when I’m wearing it, but when I remove it……. Again I choose not to buy a new one yet. I polished them.

These two items have sweat and bleed with me for years. The Polo Club watch has entered countless exams with me, including my STPM. We have fought battles together. My pair of leather shoes have walked me through almost my whole uni life. I really liked them. They cost me RM200+ each, not much to most people, but it’s the memories that made them valuable to me. I thought we could have forge through my uni life together. So sad…….

What’s happening to me???? I’m losing weight as though I’m sick or dying. I return to Ipoh yesterday and when I changed to my shorts, guess what? It would have drop down to the floor if it’s not because of my buttocks still there. Seriously, when I go out shopping this morning, I have 2 put my hands in the pockets to hold my shorts from falling (I didn’t bring my belt back).

I must regain my weight. I don’t want to change my whole wardrobe. I must eat everyday like today, nasi lemak for breakfast, durian for tea break, 1/4 chicken for dinner. I must regain my fat and calories, I must feed!!!!!

Today my parents came to look for me to do some company documents. So while i’m doing those documents we chatted some topics - UMNO election results, the house condition and family issues.

I found out from my mother that 1 of my friend  since primary school(so called “friend” of mine) is having some issues. His family is i would say rich, live in semi-D, drive big cars and got maid. He had a younger sister and younger brother. So here’s where the problem begin:

2 years ago, his sister finished form5, and insisted to go college and not form6. So the parents sent her to KTAR. After a week, she stopped because she couldn’t get used to the life(reason given is have to wash clothes sendiri susahlah, food not nice blablabla…..). I was like serve u right bitch!!!so much for scolding and ordering the maid around back at house. So wasted the money for college, “sei sei hei” study form6.

Now she finish form6 dy, father want to send her to Indonesia to do medicine or dentristy.  But now another issue is at hand:the youngest brother finished form5 and wanted to go A level. He wanted study in a college in KL(not sure what name)  because got cover law topics, so he can skip credits when he take law degree later. So next week gonna start sem and until now still haven’t prepare or confirm yet.So the parents pun pening kepala figuring how to put 3kids through college. Even their mother now have to take up a full time job. My heart is like laughing maniacally upon hearing this good news. The reason is iDO have a grudge with that “friend” of mine.

So such problems arise when parents aren’t being open with the kids. The kids should know of the family situation so they will figure out alternative solutions(if they are rational which i doubt they are). Parents should also teach kids to be more independent, not maid dependant. I was lucky i’m not like this spoilt brats.

Recently i’ve been very mong cha cha. Apparently there’s been some of feuds between my housemates and coursemates. The best part is i have no idea it even happened, I only found out from reading their blogs. He got offended by someone, that someone got offended back, those choosing to be neutral offended by other parties. Who knows someone might even been saying that i’ve offended him/her behind my back without me knowing.

Haiz, so choosing to avoid any further confrontation i just pretend i don’t know after i found out about those feuds. I tried to stay away from everyone if possible since yesterday. Better not say anything to anyone than to risk being back-stabbed unknowingly. That’s why i decided to “run away” to have lunch alone today in Juru Autocity.

But mong cha cha as usual, i took the wrong turning and instead of going to Autocity, i found myself on the Penang Bridge. And the next instant i’m in Gurney Plaza. Don’t ask me how i got there, it’s like some supernatural force guiding me there. I have no idea on how to go to Gurney Plaza, it’s like just pop out in front of me out of a sudden. So ended up having lunch in Gurney Plaza. After that, mong cha cha again drive back to Parit Buntar.

Although it’s not as i have planned, but its fun, driving alone, listening to music, not knowing where u will end up. It’s just so exciting when i start saying: “shit!!! where the hell am i??!!” It just make me forget everything, just trying to focus on the road, better than have to worry bout those assignments, projects, feuds. If only life could be so simple as travelling…..

I got addicted to chess again recently. I even started downloading a chess software yesterday. This is seriously a very bad time, since i’m having 3 tests next week.Just reminds me of my form 6 days when i studied chess more than academic stuff, no wonder i didn’t score in STPM =P

It started few days ago when i browse thorugh the 2008 world chess championship games betwen anand and kramnik. After that the addiction started again.

Few minutes ago i even played chess on yahoo just to relax from the hecktic studies. I played 2 games with another fellow. I used black. It’s a timed game of 10mins. My opponent used king’s pawn opening for both games which i happily responded with the sicilian defence. Sicilian defence is my favourite responce in such situation.

I wanted to use the sicilian dragon but he built up an aggressive attack on my kingside using his queen and bishop. So i have to abandoned my plan and fight back by blocking the center. Chess players would know this means i’ll have a weak kingside bishop helmed in by my own pawns. I made a mistake and nearly lost my first game, but i was able to fight back and time pressure him, eventually winning the game.

The second game’s opening is quite similar, but i developed my queen to the kingside to mount an attack early in the game. I believe this is one of my best open tactical games i’ve ever played. I actually hated open games, always using my knowledge on pawn structures and speed to defeat opponents in timed close games.Therefore, tactical open games isn’t my strongest field.

Hopefully that software can be downloaded within this week so i can play after my tests (you know, torrent files are stupidly slow to download). Of course i hope i don’t flunk my test also =P

This is probably my worst Chinese new year in my entire life T_T

You just know the world is in trouble when:

Many people lost their job

Government collapse(for those who don’t see news, its Iceland)

Your ang pau income drop by 2/3

You receive an empty red packet, WTF????!!!!!!

KL people giving RM2 ang pau

You get homework during CNY

You didn’t eat kuih kapit on CNY

The cookies and biscuits tastes horrible, “bee hive” taste bitter???? “nga ku” hangus……

TV no good show

My only consolation this year is I get to eat Seoul Garden. I have waited for years before getting to eat it for the 1st time, Yahoo!!!!! Just hope everyone will have better luck than me this CNY. Wishing everyone a “Happy” and “Prosperous” CNY T_T

Its the last day of 2008. I contemplate this coming with mixed emotion. While 2008 has gave me a lot of good memories but there are also nightmares that will haunt me for a very very long time.

Good reflections of the this year:

-got better academic results than previous year

-secured a place for internship at KLIA(hopefully they won’t reject me at 2009)

-i reduced the numbers of my fits of raging anger and madness

-i’m still alive!!!!

Nightmares of the year:

-even though the times i go berserk is lessen, the impact when i do seems way much severe

-my stomach continues to bug me with its occasional ache, making me feel like vomiting when it does

-i didn’t manage to leave the country for a vacation

-i’m still stuck being insignificant and unknown at the age of 22

-my investments aren’t profiting thanks to the stinking economy

My new year ambitions:

-i want to be famous and well-knowned, until my name becomes history and legend

-i want to earn and save more money!!!

-control better my anger and rage

-learn to recognize roads and places better (i get lost easily ^^)

-stay alive!!!

That wraps up the summary of the year. Wish everyone a very Happy New Year. May everyone be blessed with joy, peace and prosperity!!! Good bye 2008!!! Welcome 2009!!!

I never belief things in life can go like those love comedy shows u watch in TV until tonite. What happened is really unbelieveable in real life. I would say it’s fate for my friend. The following IS A TRUE STORY:

We went in campus to fetch 2 guys, Jet and Kevin out for dinner together. We decided to go for Bak Kut Teh, so i suggested a new shop near our campus. The food is nice and price is reasonable. But doesn’t matter, this is not the main point of our story, rather between Jet, Kevin and the shop owner’s daughter =P

After we sat, the girl came over to take our order. Jet is like flirting with the girl by saying stupid stuffs and kid actions: prepare portions for 5 persons; how big? this big ah? (with the hand action stretched wide); what else inside the bak kut teh? ;got fishball ah?

So we are like making joke of Jet during our meal. After finish, we call for our bill, and again Jet said to the girl: Bye-Bye!!! The rest of us is like……..

So during our ride back to campus, we are so making fun of the what happened, until……….Kevin: Hei, i left my handphone at the shop!!! Jet called back to the shop and the girl picked up the phone. She said  u left ur phone at the shop =P

So the joke continues. We are like saying: Kevin, u so “wai dai” help Jet “kao lui” like that; The girl must be thinking Jet do it on purpose,  want to pikat me; ei, check phone contact later see got extra 1 girl’s number or not =P

We go back to the shop. Kevin go get his phone. We in the car like saying: See, she purposely and quickly go get the phone for him. If she no feel, then must have called others to take the phone; Ei, u want to leave something else ah? keys? or wallet?

So that’s probably all for this stupid silly dinner. I can’t portrait the event clearly but seriously, at that time, it’s so funny, we keep laughing and talking on this matter. Poor Jet must be hiding in the room crying…. OR already making plans to go there again =P